Is it possible to fall in love with someone you have never physically met? Is it possible to have so much in common with someone that lives thousands of miles away? Am I silly to think there could be a future with this human?
can anyone please tell me why it’s so difficult to update your profile pic? Or am I just missing something?
Too many fires going at once makes you lose sight of what’s important!
Today was one of those days that I never should have left the house… At one point, I thought I liked change. New things, or old things, just changed around a little. But now I’m realizing I don’t like change.
We form relationships with people that we don’t even realize are forming. Two souls meet and connect on a spiritual level and become connected, in a sense. And for whatever length of time these two souls are connected they learn off each other.
Then, one day, that connection is shaddered! These two souls will never connect on that same frequency again. Lives have been changed. Spirits broken. You knew it was coming, but didn’t truly want to believe it.
That day is today! 💔
This has been on my mind for a while now and maybe putting this out in to the universe will make me feel better about it or get feedback with advice- I have known this person for roughly 12-13 years. I can’t say this person plays a big part in my life but this person definitely has space in my life. This is nothing romantic or anything like that. When I first learned of this person I could not stand them and that feeling was very mutual- Fast forward several years and here we are today.
This person and I are good friends or so I thought. I guess I can’t really say we aren’t good friends but I have learned that a lot of it is a lie. I am fully aware that people only tell you things they want you to know and I guess I wanted to believe in this person so much that I didn’t allow my mind to believe anything more. This person is a very good person but has some major dark demons. Since I have learned of these demons, honestly, I still don’t want to believe it, but looks like I will have to. In a way I look at this person differently. I am not judging this person in anyway and understand that people have to do what they have to do to survive but this is something I never thought this person would do.
But, what I don’t understand is why. I haven’t confronted this person with the knowledge that I now have and honestly, I don’t think I will. If this person wanted me to know these things they would have told me. I guess I just want to understand why. Why did this person choose this for their life. Did something happen when they were younger to lead them to where they are today? Does this person just not love themselves enough to know they deserve better and can definitely do better? I just don’t understand why someone would choose that life to live.
If you can’t tell it bothers me tremendously. I don’t know if I should confront this person and let them know what I know or if I should just keep letting this person think I am dumb and believe only what they have told me?!? Life is a struggle and everyone has their own battles no matter how it may look to someone else. Most importantly, I just want this person to know that no matter what life they lead I would never turn my back on them and I would never be disappointed in the person that they are..
I’ve been hurt, I’ve been broken, I’ve been devastated, I’ve been broken hearted, but no matter what I’ve alway bounced back..
At times it may have taken me longer than it had before, but when you allow yourself to step outside of the issue and see it for what it truly is, it makes it that much easier to rebuild yourself and put yourself back together the way YOU want. I refuse to let my hurt and my brokenness control my life anymore. I’m too good of a person to allow that..
This last bought of brokenness has truly made me learn who I am and what I want for ME. I LOVE the person I am becoming and that’s because I am fighting my ass off to become her. Sure I have set backs and bumps in the road, but I refuse to let that define me and stop me. When you give up you are allowing yourself failure and failure is something that is not in my vocabulary!
I’m on a pretty awesome journey and finding the confidence and love for myself that I have lacked for many many years. If you want to follow my journey you can, I’m on Instagram @jodisfitjourney I love helping people and if I can inspire or help change just one person then I know I am doing my job! I want to see everyone succeed!